Contemplating

I find myself thinking more often about what I want from my relationship; I'm now reading 2 different blogs from their beginnings and making a mental note of things that interest me.

What I'm likely to do soon is to begin to send my Master occasional links to items or posts that intrigue me.

I've already sent him a link to a picture of a Wartenberg wheel; the basic one row model intrigues me greatly at present, though I am stopping myself from giving too much thought to the 7 row variety until I can have my Master agree to the purchase and trial of the basic model.


I don't want to top from the bottom though; I don't want to approach my love and demand that he control me and use me.
Because of this, I'm trying to find subtler ways to show him that I'm still here, I'm still his to do with as he pleases.


Time remains as always an issue... By the time I've gotten in from work and cooked our evening meal, it's 9pm that we're sitting to eat and we have little energy to do more than watch TV and game.

On the bright side though, for the past two nights, we have sat and eaten our food whilst watching films, removing ourselves from our computers gives us a chance to focus on each other a little by snuggling and relaxing.
We're continuing with this tonight; getting Chinese takeaway in and watching a film - it's doubly special occasion, Valentine's day and 2 years since he moved in with me.

We've never really been into celebrating Valentine's day; we have takeaways on various anniversaries as a mini-celebration and we say 'I love you' several times every day. I did by him a card this year though, I couldn't resist it as the front read 'I love snuggling up to you' and it seemed to really sum us up as we spend a lot of time snuggling in bed, dozing off.
Following giving him the card, we postponed plans we'd made to visit a museum and snuggled up together to nap.

I love all the ways we curl up together, whether his strong arms are wrapped around me keeping me safe and his cock is pressed against my ass, or I'm curled around him, my head on his chest with the sound of his heartbeat close to me and my legs draped around his, or when I curl up behind him and wrap an arm around him softly kissing the middle of his back as we drift off to sleep.

But as much as I love all of this... It's so much better when I get to do it filled with cum and/or with an ass that's glowing warmly red...


So gradually in our evenings snuggled up, I'll introduce caresses and kisses, upping my general worship of my Master until he notices that I'm still his submissive slut.